Reflections & Resolutions
It’s been a hot minute since I posted on here and I wanted to start by talking about why this past year’s been a tough one.
But I’m not here to be completely morbid, I want to look forward to 2019 too and set myself some goals that I actually want to achieve, not just say I will.
So 2018, what a year. I’ve visited quite a few different places, had some of the best times of my life and some of the worst. It sounds so cliche but really, it’s been such a roller coaster but I finally feel like I’m on the right path.
Looking back, I went to Manchester, Lincoln, Leicester, Nottingham (countless times), Birmingham, Sheffield, Ibiza and Edinburgh. I think in a year, that’s quite an achievement and it’s something I love to do; travel. Not just to new places but to familiar places I know and love.
I managed to still buy as many clothes as ever (I’ll be coming onto that later in my resolutions part) and buy a gazillion new make up and beauty bits. BUT, it’s helped me narrow down what I really love and what really works for me.
One of the biggest things that shifted this year was relationships. I’ve moved back home with my mum and sister now so I’m closer again with them now which is both a blessing and a curse.
I’ve come to realise that it’s better to have a few close friends you can trust and talk to about anything rather than LOADS of friends who you can’t always rely on.
Another thing that’s massively changed is that I’m not engaged anymore. It’s been a tough few months but it was my decision to break things off and I’m taking 2019 as it comes, to focus on my self.
In terms of my mental health, I think I’ve realised that it’s OK not to always be happy and you can have off days. You’re not always the person that’s happy 24/7 on Social Media and that’s OK. I feel like 2019 is going to give me a better head space, just so I can focus on doing all the things I’ve wanted to do for so long.
Another positive that’s come out of this year is my confidence; I feel like I’m more sassy now and I know what to say no to. I especially think with work, I feel a lot more comfortable and I’m genuinely happy which I know, can be a rare occurrence.
One of the biggest things I want to focus on in 2019 is money. I want to get myself some savings, which I’ve always struggled with in the past. But I know I need to get some money behind me, just for security really.
I’m also still sat in my student overdraft, two years after graduating. So that’s probably my biggest goal this year, is to pay it off and feel a heck load better.
Another thing I’ve been meaning to do for so long is to get my driving lessons done and I’ve already begun to book them in so I’m making good progress. My birthday’s in August and I want to have passed and got myself a car by then.
Another thing I really want to do is feel body confident and there’s a few things I want to do to get there. I’m going to have a bit of a change up with my hair and I want to go more ashy/silver for the first time ever! I’m also planning on getting a few more tattoos too because I just bloody love them. I’m going to get myself fit, healthy and do some toning up because I hate nothing more than my little podgy belly and thunder thighs. I know, self love and all that, but it’s just my personal preference.
You might not think this is important but I just want to have fun and be spontaneous. I’m an organised girl who likes to have everything planned in advance but I need to learn to just relax and take things as they come. I don’t have to worry what anyone else thinks and just be myself. I want to go to so many different places and sometimes, I know I should just get up and go rather than worry about the consequences.
2019 is about being happy, fun and spontaneous!